A great article on childhood anxiety…


Anxiety is a huge issue among children who have had disruption and trauma in their lives.  It manifested itself in a variety of ways in our own children.  They struggled to sleep, battled chronic stomach aches and had irrational fears of things like bathrooms.

Here is a link to an article I recently came across that I thought you might find interesting…click here!


Powerful Posts on Adoption!!!

Holding Hands

I came across this today and just had to share…

Finding the Lovely, has been running a series of guest posts on adoption and they are simply POWERFUL!

                                                                     Check it out!

Can someone help keep these kids together?

Urgent! One month to find family for sibling group
Share on all your social media sites…lets get these guys a home before its too late!

Click here to read original blog—   And see their ADORABLE pics (even through the blur!)

$10,000 child-specific grant available to the adoptive family of these brothers
A group of four handsome brothers urgently needs a permanent family as they are at risk of being separated! The brothers, ages 16, 12, 10 and 6, have various interests, but have one thing in common: a close, secure bond with one another. If we do not find a family for these boys within the next month, the eldest brother will be separated from his younger siblings.
The youngest brother “V,” born in 7/2008, is known as a good student, sensitive to other’s needs, and affectionate. He has a positive, cheerful attitude each and every day. He is enrolled in the second grade and is a good student. He has a competitive edge in swimming, football, and academics. He enjoys soccer, music, visiting parks and watching Spiderman shows.
Born in 12/2004, “J” is described as a friendly boy who easily adapts to new environments. He is a good student and has good relationships with peers. He has creative, artistic skills and enjoys drawing, painting and singing. His favorite activities include watching cartoons, football, cycling, going to the movies and eating ice cream.
“W” was born in 6/2003 and aspires to be a singer when he grows up. He is enrolled in school and likes art and Spanish. He is described as tender-hearted, expresses his feelings easily, and gives hugs and kisses to those he trusts. He likes to play soccer, hang out with friends, collect toy cars and play at the pool. He can show typical pre-teen behaviors, but overall is respectful.
The eldest brother, “C”, was born in 7/1998. He is driven by a desire to help people, and hopes to become a doctor someday. He is passionate about school and performing well in his classes, especially his favorite subjects: arts and ethics. He likes to listen to music, exercise, sing, watch movies and read books. “C” is sensitive to the needs of others around him; he frequently takes a positive leadership role in his group of friends, and a paternalistic or protective role with his brothers. He has a minor disease that is commonly caused by overuse of muscles as the body grows that causes him some pain, but it is expected to correct on its own and not cause ongoing concerns.
Other than “C’s” minor medical need, these children are considered healthy. Each of the boys has expressed a deep desire to be adopted into a family that will provide them the love and care they want and need. As “W” views it, adoption will provide “more opportunity to study and become professionals and [to] count on the love of a family throughout our whole life.” We sincerely hope you or someone you know would consider adopting these four brothers so they can remain together.

Learn More About V, J, W, and C
We cannot share clear photos of these boys online, but photos are available to those who inquire. If we receive more information about these children, we will update this blog page and our Facebook page. If you would like to know more about these children, please contact intchild@chsfs.org and reference 615-34.
Eligible famlies may qualify for a grant through LSS/CH and Brittany’s Hope Foundation in addition to the $10,000 child-specific grant that has been allocated to the boys (expires 10/31/2015).

Waiting Children
Along with reading blogs about the children who wait, you can view all waiting child profiles on our online listing.

Financing Adoption
There are a number of resources available to families who would like to adopt but are concerned about financing. If you would like to learn more, we welcome you to read about the Adoption Support Fund and view our infographic of fundraising ideas.

Where is the HELP?!

This is far too common…

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For about 20% of adoptive families find themselves in REALLY difficult situations.  Although it makes sense why the kids are struggling, considering their background.  It still leaves the family scrambling to know how to cope.  We can ‘understand’, ’empathize’ and even fully grasp the ins and outs of trauma and attachment disorder, but understanding and empathizing doesn’t keep your other kids safe or you sane.  And when it comes right down to keeping your family safe, there is just no easy answer!

This is not what any parent envisions for the child that they love.  And until we walk in very similar shoes, its impossible to really know how it must feel to make these heart wrenching choices.

But what am I saying?…what choices?  The lack of choices, resources, HELP is so devastatingly scarce.  If there were good choices, she might not be in this situation at all.

Uh-oh, I did something good?? Re-wiring the heart of a hurt child



Attaching to stable, loving parents is the most frightening thing for a hurt child to do.  When you think about it, why would they want to build a bond to the very thing that represents the reason they are hurt in the first place?  On an intellectual level, I get that.  But emotionally its a daily struggle to not take their distancing behaviors personally.  David and I have gotten pretty good at watching for signs that they are taking a risk and trying to bond.  Our natural response is to give praise and encouragement in response to their efforts.  Imagine our wonder when instead of inspiring more growth and effort, it was fodder for failure.

For kids who are more comfortable with distance, those who feel the only way they will survive this life is to be the ones in control, the motivation behind most of their behavior is to keep you distant and out of control.  Its a very sad existence when you think about it.  The innate desire of any human is to be nurtured, cared for and in relationship with others.  We are born with the understanding that our parents are the ones responsible for providing that care and relationship until we are old enough to handle this complex world and when that bond is broken, for whatever reason, something deep inside is broken.  The whole system is rewired and now instead of resting in the arms of a secure parent, learning to love, grow and thrive while being protected and cared for, the child must thrash, fight and scrape for every shred of life in order to survive.  It becomes me against the world in an effort to keep from being swallowed up.  Its not about relationship anymore, its about staying alive.  Emotions take a back seat to needs, it all about ‘me’ and what I must have to make it.

Given this perspective we can begin to understand the motivation behind many of the behaviors that hurt children display.  Lying, cheating, stealing, defecating, sabotaging good times, etc. – all these make sense when you remember their purpose.  The child has to display these behaviors in order to do two things; maintain control by keeping you out of control and keep you at a safe distance.  Therefore, parenting a hurt child becomes more about training yourself to respond correctly than teaching the child to behave correctly.

So back to my original question…why is it that whenever we saw the child really making an effort to attach or submit to our rules, etc. and we offered praise and encouragement, they reverted instead of sought to do even better?  Simple.  When you think about how every moment of their existence an internal battle between their innate desire to be cared for, nurtured and in relationship and their overwhelming fear of parents, love and intimacy is raging within them.  It makes perfect sense.  Part of them wants desperately to give control of themselves over to us as their parents, that the natural way.  But the other, mixed up and hurt side, is battle to maintain control because thats safer.  They are trying to give their hearts over to us.  Making big and little strides toward relationship.  When we recognize those efforts and give praise it freaks them out.  They suddenly think that they have gone too far and retreat to their comfort zone of distancing behaviors.

So should we not encourage or recognize them for their efforts, even though we know the extreme risk they took to make those strides toward relationship and what it cost them?  I dont think thats the answer at all.  David and I have developed an attitude that has worked pretty well for us.  There are two ways that we have chosen to approach these situations.  First, we know that if we bring a child into our room ( the place where all serious conversations take place-lol) that we have established an environment where they have given over control just by entering our domain.  Its a very uncomfortable situation for them to be in right from the start.  If we then proceed to encourage them for the good they have done, we are silently saying, ” Submit to our control and come into our relationship space and let us hold out our hearts to you while we honor you, oh most unworthy one, for failing to protect yourself and maintain control of your world and keep yourself safe by not giving in to the rules that might end up hurting you…”  They hear those things when all we are trying to say is, “We see your efforts to grow and love-way to go!”  We want so desperately to encourage our children that its worth the risk to go through that whole scene anyway, in hopes that a bit of our loving message will make it home to their heart and spur them on to a happy life.  But we also know that it will likely mean a launch into bad behaviors for a while afterwards while they buck against the feelings it evoked.  Like I said, sometimes its worth it because we see they really had made progress and will return to a better place in the end.  We save those times for really significant things though and generally take a much less vulnerable method of praise, which I will explain.

Touch and eye contact are relationship builders, not generally popular with children who have been hurt.  All the more reason to look for ways that you, as the parent, can employ them-right?  So, when a child has done something that you recognize was a move toward giving up control or building relationship, its a perfect time to give a quick encouragement using tough and eye contact.  Sometimes I will just move toward them, touch them gently (which startles them because they dont like touch, and makes them look at you suddenly) and then follow with a short, quiet-“good job, that was nice” or whatever is appropriate.  Always careful to keep it short and then move away before they have time to squirm.  That way you took them off guard and moved on while you were still in control of the situation.  If they baulk and say crazy things as you move away, dont respond and give control back to them.  Another way is to make a shocking noise to catch their attention, then sing a quick jingle of praise, do a jig while praising them, or war whoop- something that takes them off guard.  You can slip your praise in before they know what hits them and then move out of the situation, bringing the control with you-hehe!

Its possible that they will still revert and give their unwitting brother or dog a quick pop in response to your praise, but believe me they heard it and it went to a deep place, stirring those God given desires for relationship and making them hunger for more.

Happy relationship building 🙂


Here are some books that I found to be helpful-

Building the Bonds of Attachment, by Daniel Hughs


Parenting the Hurt Child by Gregory Keck

Click on the title and it will bring you to Amazon 🙂

The Complexity of Attachment

There is no doubt in my mind that adoption is miraculous!  The coming together of separate lives that eventually meld together to form a family is beautiful.  Much like a marriage, these people take the different characteristics, habits, beliefs and cultures, melding them together to recreate the definition of themselves.

When this process is successful, the story has a happy ending and the various characters in that story are enriched and strengthened by it.  On the other hand, when the bonding doesn’t happen, irreconcilable differences result in separation and pain.  So what causes that blending to happen, or not?

Recognizing the fact that families choosing to adopt are doing just that, choosing.  They want to adopt, they want to bring a child into their home.  The home is established prior to that child coming into it.  There is a culture in every home.  A “frame”, if you will, that provides the boundary around the picture of that family.  The people in the picture may not consciously recognize how elaborate that frame is.  The frame is made up of many elements.  Some of it was brought to the family by each member before marriage, such as; hopes, dreams, expectations, childhood abuse or trauma.  These elements work together to create the identity of each person within the family.  Then there are the dynamics that define the family as a whole; infertility, religious practices, parenting strategies/beliefs, losses, etc.  All of these play into the hopes and expectations that we have for the child coming into the home.  Subconsciously, we often think that this child will, given enough love, learn to adjust to this framework.

Then we have the child, who fundamentally has no choice or power.  An individual with many elements that have worked together, and are still working, to form who they are.  This child, especially if they are not an infant, has a history that plays into their identity (see my blog at http://www.aplaceforhome.com/blog for more on this).  Their culture, religion, personality, hopes, dreams, expectations (yes, they have expectations of you, too!), losses, trauma, etc. all blend to make a pretty amazing bundle!

So now we try and fit these two dynamic elements together.  Each person in the family coming to terms with this new person, who they are, who they are not.  Hopes and dreams being molded into reality.  Unfulfilled expectations gnawing at us and hurts resurfacing.  All are a normal part of the re-adjustment period. No amount of pushing, pulling or praying will get that bundle of child to fit into the framework of your family without changing the shape of that frame!  We must be willing to accept that our family will no longer be what it was.  The family that we knew before, is gone and a new one has taken its place.  This process can take 3 months to many years, depending on the child (especially age and level of previous trauma) and the family.

That isn’t a bad thing.  In fact, it can be a pretty amazing and wonderful thing, if we are willing to allow that change to happen.  We also need to be open to grieving the loss of the family that we knew before.  Our roots have been ripped up and moved.  That is never an easy thing.  Everyone will struggle a bit, sometimes a lot.  But then one day, you will wake up and see that your family now has a new identity and its pretty cool!

A good friend and seasoned social worker once said, “The families I find to be most successful in adoption are the ones who see their family as a pliable unit, and parenting as an art, rather than a science”

A Great Read!!!

Thought I would give you a quick review of a wonderful book I just finished reading.  I’ve actually read this book a couple of times before, yet still managed to glean some very good stuff from it.  Building the Bond of Attachment by Daniel A. Hughes, its a classic in the adoption library!  Many people refer to it as the “Katie” book as it is the fictional story of a little girl named Katie who suffers from extreme Reactive Attachment Disorder.

Katie enters foster care at the age of five, already having failed to form meaningful bonds with her parents, she is at a serious disadvantage in life.  Although the physical abuse that she suffered is the catalyst for her being removed from her parents, it is really the emotional neglect that she endured that causes the greatest barrier for future bonding.  Hughes describes it as the “dance” between a mother and child, that never happened with Katie and her mom.  It is the cycle of need and response, a give and take, the touch, tickle, eye contact and smiles that make up the emotional tie between a mother and child.  Instead of bonding, Katie felt alone, scared and confused.  All of which caused her to become angry and hardened, desperate to fulfill her own needs at any cost.

I have to insert a personal side-note at this point.  Although this book was written about a little girl who lost her mothers love as an infant,  it is applicable to children of all ages who lose this most significant relationship.  The thought processes and patterns of behavior that Katie displays are found in children who DID have an emotional attachment with their mothers but then for various reasons that bond was broken.  Unable to understand or process the grief, they are filled with anger, confusion and fear, just as Katie was.  So don’t stop reading just because you think your child was bonding to their birth mom at a young age.  Any break in that maternal bond, can cause some level of attachment struggles and therefore Hughes’ book can offer wonderful insight into their world and give great parenting strategies for coping with their behavior.  Our motivation for educating ourselves on these issues should never be to slap a label on our child as an excuse for their actions, but rather to equip ourselves to better meet their needs.

If you don’t know whether your child struggles with attachment issues, Hughes offers a comprehensive list of general symptom patterns in the books appendix.  Here are a few that I’m sure most people can relate to and will give you motivation to read the book; excessive need to control (top of the list!), hurting others and self (emotional and physical), intense negative affect (rage, terror, despair), lying, excusing, blaming, demanding, lack of empathy, lack of guilt or remorse, lack of joy or humor, lack of eye contact, etc…etc!  Hughes explains that a child who has does not have proper attachment skills unconsciously feels that they are unworthy of love and that conviction is experiences as shame.  Shame motivates all their actions, they behave in ways that confirm their view of themselves.

Building the Bonds of Attachment clearly defines the parents role as therapeutic caregiver.  Katie chews up and spits out several foster families before she is finally places with a foster mom who understands how important it is to maintain a therapeutic attitude.  She sees every moment and interaction with Katie as critical for her healing and strives to maintain what Hughes describes as “The Attitude”.  Five aspects of ‘being’ comprise the critical components of ” The Attitude”; being accepting, being curious, being empathetic, being loving and being playful.  Throughout the book, Katie’s foster mom and her therapist work intensely with Katie using “The Attitude” to lovingly, but firmly move her toward bonding.

Maintaining “The Attitude” on a daily basis is no easy task.  At the heart of it is the ability to remain calm and engaging even in the most difficult circumstances.  Understanding that the child is seeking at every turn to push you away and confirm her belief that she is unworthy of love and acceptance.  Watching this play out through the story with her foster family, therapist and state social worker, keeps the interesting as well as educational.

I have pages of notes taken while I read and would like to share just a few tidbits that I gleaned from my reading.  For instance, gaining control of their surroundings is a primary motivation for the child.  They are convinced that if they can control their environment and the people around them, they will finally feel safe, possibly even happy.  We need to help them by taking that control away from them and help them to see that they can be happy without it, that we are safe and can be trusted to manage their lives.  They don’t need to be the dictators of their world, they can finally rest and live the happy childhood that they missed.  We don’t take control because we want it, but simply because they have trouble managing it themselves.

Another great point was that often we are forced to change our parenting styles to better meet the needs of that child.  This can be very difficult for some parents who have had a lot of success with a particular parenting plan.  Understanding that trauma can cause stunted emotional growth, and  lowering our expectations of what that child can handle.  Yet Hughes challenges the reader to expect the child to excel at their ‘age’ level.  For example, if a child’s chronological age is 12, understand that emotionally she is possibly 6, and expecting her to do VERY well at 6.

There are so many wonderful, yet challenging lessons woven within the fabric of the story of little Katie.  Many times it is difficult to know how she will ever overcome her intense difficulties.  Her foster mom endures so many frustrations.  Katie battles the idea of trusting and becoming bonded by doing everything she can think of to turn her foster mom away from her.  Through the story you both dislike her and ache for her. Finding yourself wondering how it is that she could do such horrible things!  But Hughes does a great job throughout the book of teaching the reader what is going on inside the heart and head of a child who struggles to attach. And in the end, gives us reason to hope!

This book is an absolute MUST for any family thinking about adopting a child!